A Sunday without you..

I remember the Sunday which used to start with the thought of being with you.. It used to start with a smile on my face.. It used to start with the thrill and excitement in my heart of holding you again, of kissing you and of being kissed by you, of being in your wide arms whole day long and sharing the warmth of our bodies.. I used to get up with the thought that we will be sharing some good moments together… And that we will create some good memories together again.. I remember how I used to get ready, like I just wanted to impress you and win your heart with the best-est look in the whole world(And believe me I used to always succeed in doing that). 

But today it's different.. I have to spend my Sunday without you.. No more good moments to create, no more sharing kisses and warm hugs.. No more getting ready and looking good..

I wonder, what you doing today? Whole day just passes by thinking about you.. Do you think of me the same way as I think of you? Do you miss me the same way as I miss you?

What went so wrong between us? May be I know the answer too.. But can't it be solved? Do I have to live like this my whole life? How can people ask me to move on when you still hold a part of my soul with you? When you still hold my heart with you? This pain in my heart of not being with you anymore is so deep and strong that time can not erase them all..  I can't love anyone else but you.. Now that's for sure!

Though I didn't got you in this life.. But I wish that I will have you in my next.. I just can't  forget you.. I have tried moving away from every thought that holds you.. But it's impossible.. May be I should stop doing that..  May be I should accept it as my fate and should start living with it.. Living with your memories..

We might had worst-est fights in our life with each other, but all those bad moments are not enough to make me forget about you and those wonderful memories I had with you.. I have ENGRAVED you in my heart like forever..

May be I should start living with those memories.. Those memories are enough for me to live with..

May be I should just wait and stop moving far away from you. I was wrong, getting away from you will get me no where.. Because I am filled with all of you..

May be I should just wait for you to show up in my life once again in the same way as you did before..

May be I should just wait.. And if lucky I will not be spending my next Sunday without you ;(

How did she become this? What went wrong? She was never suppose to fall in love and yet here she is.